Secret (VIII)

 The Shay Saga - Part VIII

This isn't the first time I've been somebody's dark secret or sidepiece or whatever you want to call it. This is not the first time I've played this game. Monogamy is for people later in life or once you reach a certain level with someone. However, this is the first time I've actually cared about my position and I don't know what to do about it. The fucked up part about being a secret in someone else's life, means that I can't talk to anyone about it or else it violates the unspoken rules of the whole thing. Just writing this out is walking a fine line but if I can't talk to myself about all of this, who can I? Especially since talking to the other party involved doesn't really give me any answers so I might as well talk to myself anyway...

I want to interact with this person the way I should be able to, but there's too many damn walls around us right now. It's literally making me sick. It's no wonder the doctors haven't found anything wrong with me yet. It's not my physical body that's broken, it's my Soul.....

(((Unfinished)))