The Art Collective

            The Shay Saga - Part VII Maybe it's because I can see the end that she says isn't coming that keep invading my thoughts before bed each night is the reason why I continue to have these nightmares. Maybe it's because I'm fighting a war that I already know is lost is the reason why I continue to feel the pain I do. She says that she never wants me to leave yet I'm always watching her go or she keeps pushing me away. Why am I always standing alone when it's time to pick up all the pieces. Why am I always standing alone when she says "I'll always be there for you..."  One day she'll see that I was always there when she needed me. Until the day she comes back to me and realizes that I am no longer standing there waiting for her... I honestly don't know what hurts more. Knowing that this is goodbye or not even given the opportunity to say goodbye one last time..... She took for granted the fact that I would always be there so leaving ...

 The Shay Saga - Part VI I am become Death. As a former addict, I am well aware when I am immunocompromised. The systems going offline, so to speak. Kidneys shut down and the body expelling all the toxicity I've accumulated over the years. My body, mind and spirit needed a hard reset. Getting to and staying on my feet was an impossible task. The pain was familiar but something new entirely... But when she was near me.....  I began to regain my strength. I felt my heart beat faster. I noticed my soul sensed it's purpose. I am becoming the Resurrection. What once was the feeling of Death coming near had become the strength I needed to push on with a message from Her that simply stated "Knock knock" because she was at the front door. Just Her presence alone was enough to make me feel so much better, but it was Her touch that made me feel brand new. It was Her scent that allowed me to regain my footing. And yet, it was Her eyes that gave me the focus to do everything that...